Waking Up

I need to stop checking social media first thing upon waking. It wakes me up, absolutely. But then I’m already doom scrolling. I have a couple dlc packs in my neurology called bipolar depressive disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Anxiety Disorder. And starting the day with doom scrolling is basically like starting your commute to work by activating the nitrous on your Mini Cooper.

And yet I still depend upon caffeine to face my day job. I want another way to start my day. Because this isn’t working. But I don’t know what to do about it. The life sold to me isn’t something I have managed to face unmedicated very often. It’s like trying to eat oatmeal without two pounds of brown sugar.